Her

I write this, broken. Drowning. I’m suffocating. I’ve finally been paid back. For the hurt I have inflicted. So here I am. Ready to confess. For a promise, Has broken me. Here it is. This moment was bound to happen. I feel cold. So cold. So much happiness. So much hope. All destroyed, In one moment. Because of one promise. One promise. I wonder if it was a lie. Maybe. But lie was a drug. I enjoyed it as long as it lasted. I loved it more than everything. Too bad it ended. I’m losing my sanity. She stole it. And ran away. I noticed I’m a fool. I dreamt of the sky. When I belong in the dirt. Maybe I deserve it. Who knows? Was it worth? At least I won’t have regrets. Actually, I take that back. I’m full of regrets. She would always be that distant angel. The stars kids try to reach. The sky we try to touch. But why? Why did I never realise? That the actress is on screen. With the rain falling outside, I cry. Burning hot tears, Scorch my cheeks. All because of her. Her smooth dark brown skin. Her cute smile. All the features I had come to love. We’re snatched. Snatched from me. By the one I used to trust. The traitor. The one who I abandoned. Do I admit defeat? Yes. A girl’s heart is complicated. Exactly why I don’t want it. Deep down I know. I know I’m a damned liar. Two faced snake. I’m lying to myself. I desire her. Desire her holding my hands. Desire is watching the sunset. But I have failed. I lay my sword on the ground. I kneel. This is the where I stop. Stop fighting. I’m sorry. No I’m not. No I am.