Help Give Me Strength

HELP me I'm struggling today These thoughts won't go away Help me I feel so sad Am I really that bad a dad Angry at the slightist of things Losing it when that bell rings The bell that just can't be heard So cranky it's really absurd Help me I feel I have failed Yet again my judgement is impaled Help me get back on the road I dont like this when I explode Scary to the ones that I love Here the calling of the white dove Go away dove it's not my time Leave me be and I'll be just fine Venom of a deadly snake does alight My family are the ones I do fright I must now attempt to put it right Stay awake late into the night Force all these thoughts away Live once more to fight the day It came this time out of the blue I really don't know what to do Fight or flight is what I have learnt Alas either way I will be burnt Locked away to drown my sorrow I need to find that tomorrow But tomorrow is the thing that never arrives Regret and sadness is what appears Tears flow from these tired eyes Not wanting to say goodbyes The demon within is strong this time Pulling hard on the twine I'm using every ounce of strength I have left But he knows I'm so bereft If I go then he has won again Taken another of mortal plain But I'm not ready for an epilogue I'm the Prince dressed as the frog The love I get from my family Give me strength and clarity He is strong but I remain still Win this battle yes I will