Heavy Load

Mistakes have been made in life unfixable most of the time hopefully learn from. Thoughts in your mind going over and over wondering what if I did this or what if I did that. Still I scream, cry I'm so so worthless . When I try harder than ever before I still fall.                            Wishing I could eventually fix it all. Yet knowing I can't. A burning in my heart for my kids. My love life my whole world I'd do anything to go back pay more attention and hold on dearly to their precious lives.                                               Time missed as I watched them grow. Only praying that my love is strong enough that one day they'd come home. Athough I still got to forgive myself,until then I'll carry this burden,My heavy load.That I caused yet my kids paid the price.