Heartbroken

Successful There is good stress I never understood until now My shoulders have been real heavy I am tired of having to proof myself to people who broke me I am tired of pleasing everyone but myself I am tired of relatives dying that mean a lot to me I am tired of people trying to figure out what is wrong with me when in Reality they need to look in the mirror. They say they changed but they remain the same in the long run I am done trying to fix those that are broken. I can barely fix myself. But you know what Blessings come with sufferings. I can only change myself. I can't no longer hold on to the change of anyone else. This is not my burden to carry. God I give it to you. I am sorry that I may seem bitter but initially with this devasting news. How am I suppose to feel? But u know what GOD you know what to do and you will guide me to push through. This is my testimony maybe this will save somebody's life or make Just have been think twice. Anyway my life will not be in vain I want to leave a legacy for our children and my husband