Heartache of Mother

I am sad , crying every day . My first born died second alive but ill. She is 25 now, and i am tired of crying , tired of thinking where i went wrong , what if . I am not tired of praying , begging God to forgive whatever caused this all ,begging Father to heal her to free her ... Listening to prophets every day holding to every word of hope ,encouragement . am not strong but those words are strong so they holding me so i wont faint. Oh Mother who are weak hold on to the Word Of God, hold on to promises of better life and end of death . the end