Headaches

My friend once told me She hurts her self because She hates her life She didn’t say it exactly like that But at the time I couldn’t comprehend how she did it. Now I kind of understand. I practically do the same thing with my headaches. I get them all the time. Instead of taking medicine to make them stop. I let the pain get so bad that no medicine could help. Now most could see that’s a stupid thing to do. But honestly it what I deserve. I’m a horid person Though most wouldn’t know I pathologically lie And I hate people so much that I wish they would just die. I hate my self so much that one time I almost tried to die. I won’t paint that sad picture Because I’m pretty sure You can already see it in your minds eye. But now I just punish my self With these headaches To try killing myself on the inside.