He Walked On Water

He Walked on Water

In my youth, I thought it was a farce!
Because I wanted man to be the great
overcomer, not a God!
And most assuredly I found, faith in 
man to be an absolute, total bummer!

The darling of the universe!
So obstinate and narcisstic, was I.
I had to learn the excruciating way,
How pig-ignorant it is to try.
College degrees, money, drinking,
endless bonking, vacations left my
inner being so woefully dry.

I tossed the Bible out of my Life and
how blundering I was, struggling 
frantically to prove that man was
all there was.
The endless impoverishment of my days,
The fears and tears and loneliness, oh!
These lasted decades and decades.

My crackbrained struggles to find
ultimate truth in folk songs?
Yes, they are still out there with the 
pretense of having the world's solutions?
How could I have believed such trash?
I belonged housed, in an institution!

It was decades of a God-less travail,
Some very harsh lessons I had to be taught.
Yet, once I invited God to live within my
soul,
Days of vile emptiness and the most vile 
addiction of alll~~proving I was the best,
were removed and gone!!
Gratefully, with one invitation to The Christ
absolutely and suddenly all madness ceased.

(This is the life and truths of a grateful
and not yet accomplished poet.)

Panagiota Romios
4/27/2019
7:00 am PST
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Krutsinger Avatar
April 28, 2019 at 7:41 AM
Beautifully done, my friend, a wonderful tribute to a sinner (which we all are of course) finding her way back to her faith, and relishing her home place.
Romios Avatar
April 28, 2019 at 8:30 AM
How well you put it! PR
Cunningham Avatar
April 27, 2019 at 1:55 PM
We all rebel in our youth and think we know it all but we always come back to where we started and realise it was there all the time. Wisdom comes with age. Have a great weekend. Tom
Romios Avatar
April 27, 2019 at 3:14 PM
Tom.. I explained to Jennifer, I searched for Him in all the wrong places, I never was an atheist ever. Sad to hear about the shooting in CA a few hours ago at a Chabad Synagogue. Nobody dead. Thank God. Yes will have great weekend,Panagiota.
Proxenos Avatar
April 27, 2019 at 12:59 PM
Hi Panagiota, God is omnipresent and is aware of each unique individual - He keeps our faith in store until he thinks we are ready - very happy for you Hugs Jennifer xxx
Romios Avatar
April 27, 2019 at 1:16 PM
Greetings, Jennifer.I do like the way you put it. I spent years searching for Himin other religions. But did not know, He was watching me all the time. And thanks for being happy for me. Really can feel that...love~ Panagiota
Pandit Avatar
April 27, 2019 at 11:24 AM
So glad you found your faith and regained meaning ..many go through this search in life.
Romios Avatar
April 27, 2019 at 11:31 AM
Hi Vijay! Took long but am in the right place now! I agree. Practically the whole world is going through this. Appreciate your comment and visit always Blessings, PR
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