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Hate Turned To Happiness

“All I want is to grow old with you.. to watch our life unfold, our dreams one by one come true. All I want is to love you forever..”

Wish I could be so naive
And believe all these lies
The ones told straight to my face
With clear, trusting eyes

But I've played this game before
And lost too many times
I'm afraid that if I lose once more
My heart will grow cold, unkind
And I don't want to be like the rest
dishonest and disloyal
A cheater at my best
I don't want to play this game
The one you all live by
Getting over on each other
Friends and enemies combined

I'd rather just be me
Instead I have to hide
Sometimes I feel as though
I was put in the wrong dimension
The evil that I witness daily
Is almost too much to mention
But let me clear things up-
I'm no saint among sinners
But sometimes the one who loses the game
Really is the winner
That blue ribbon.. or the trophy
Mean nothing with hate and greed in your heart

But every time I speak my mind
They laugh at me and tear me apart
And no one wants to be the friend
Of the freak who stands alone
So I'd watch them all laughing, joking around
Silent as a stone
And wonder what did they want
What did they hope to see?
Why must people play these games?
And why always, to me?

Night after sleepless night
I'd lay in bed and wonder why
Until one day I realized
That they were very different than I
Bringing others hurt and pain
Watching as they'd cry
Somehow brought them happiness
Still I'm not sure why

It was then that I realized
Never would I be fully understood
Some were just too gone to recognize good
And even I forgot that good still existed
But then I realized it exists inside if me
Inside of everything I've sacrificed
Or given freely to someone in need
Every single compliment
Every gift that was received
Every hug or helping hand I lent to someone crying on their knees

Not every gesture was appreciated
But that wasn't my motivation
Kindness lives in my heart
And that is my salvation

In a hateful world we always make a choice
So now I ask you
Don't give in to that evil voice

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