Hate

Hate As a child I was taught to forgive In my family hate was a bad word I took it all in Sometimes forgiving too easily Yet here I am Hurting more than I can say Because in my heart is Hate I was always told that hate hurts the hater More than the one who is hated Maybe they are right But what do you do when someone you love Betrays you in so many ways In just one day When they cross a line that can’t be uncrossed Even puts your well being in jeopardy And the first thing you feel After the shock is Hate I was told to sleep on it and I might feel Different in the morning Morning came And the feeling is stronger Not better And as the day has passed I feel as if my heart is about to explode With all this Hate I am trying so hard To rationalize Turn this feeling around Yet for every reason to forgive A reason to not comes up too The trust is all gone My heart feels shattered I feel like a fool For ever trying to mend The relationship We never really had I know it isn’t the Christian thing to do But I just don’t feel that I Can ever forgive her Not this time Not ever There is too much bad blood between us Now there is Hate By blood she is my mother But that is where it ends Because yesterday She messed with my well being My sanity My life She put me in-between a rock and a hard place & I realized That as much as I have always Wanted her to love me There has never been anything there So now it is time to move on Give up trying Because I just can’t bring myself to love her Anymore All I feel is Hate By: Jeanna York 10/20/2013