Hate
Hate
As a child I was taught to forgive
In my family hate was a bad word
I took it all in
Sometimes forgiving too easily
Yet here I am
Hurting more than I can say
Because in my heart is
Hate
I was always told that hate hurts the hater
More than the one who is hated
Maybe they are right
But what do you do when someone you love
Betrays you in so many ways
In just one day
When they cross a line that can’t be uncrossed
Even puts your well being in jeopardy
And the first thing you feel
After the shock is
Hate
I was told to sleep on it and I might feel
Different in the morning
Morning came
And the feeling is stronger
Not better
And as the day has passed
I feel as if my heart is about to explode
With all this
Hate
I am trying so hard
To rationalize
Turn this feeling around
Yet for every reason to forgive
A reason to not comes up too
The trust is all gone
My heart feels shattered
I feel like a fool
For ever trying to mend
The relationship
We never really had
I know it isn’t the Christian thing to do
But I just don’t feel that I
Can ever forgive her
Not this time
Not ever
There is too much bad blood between us
Now there is
Hate
By blood she is my mother
But that is where it ends
Because yesterday
She messed with my well being
My sanity
My life
She put me in-between a rock and a hard place
& I realized
That as much as I have always
Wanted her to love me
There has never been anything there
So now it is time to move on
Give up trying
Because I just can’t bring myself to love her
Anymore
All I feel is
Hate
By: Jeanna York
10/20/2013
Copyright © Jeanna York | Year Posted 2013
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