Hate

I hate my stupid self for still having hope I hate myself for not yet tying the rope I hate myself for still trying to cope I hate myself for not moving on I hate myself for still being a pawn I hate myself for being hopeful of dawn I hate myself for not sealing the cut I hate myself for not glueing my heart shut I hate myself for not trusting my gut I hate myself for always being wrong I hate myself for still waiting so long I hate myself for never being strong I hate myself for never being enough to satisfy I hate myself for believing that I could still fly I hate myself for still not wanting to cry I hate myself for never letting go I hate myself for not allowing me to grow I hate myself for not rising from below I hate myself for still being in pain I hate myself for throwing my efforts in vain I hate myself for not being sane