Hard To Hold

I noticed how you pushed me in the margins
Don’t think it was fair, being thrown in garbage bins
I am an amazon parrot in the middle of nowhere
I soar so high, can’t deny, forgetting past despair
Don’t break me…and you let it all show..
My headaches and growth pains makes living life rough
I long to be free…from the depths of below…
So, don’t you lead me on with your avarice aggressiveness
I won’t ever be deceived by your heartless, half-hearted smiles
Regrets, no more of your wasted time and such sore sadness
You give me lows and highs that go on and on for a million miles
Wished for glee…lacking glow…stranded and out you go…
Happiness won’t spare me a dime of delight…yet
I am a melody with a ruined tune...I hope for your harmony 
Well, it doesn’t matter if we are airborne like a...jet 
I just don’t want to be free-falling to the ground helplessly
Cut down like a tree…so low…speechless, oh no….
I’ve done a lot more damage than good unfortunately
You tattooed your tranquility upon my thirsty veins 
Seconds, minutes and hours pass me by mindlessly
You zip through my lost mind like thousands of trains
You didn’t hear my plea...I know…yeah, you know…
My heart was pounding with agitation and spiraling madness 
Until you enlightened my mindset and all of me to be honest
Thanks for the strength you gave me when I was in my mess
You always end up out of my reach barely – just give me rest 
Where do I truly flee? Oh…why is my progress so slow? 
Naturally, you did make me feel...so much less than enough
Poetry helps to express my emotional imperfections and stuff

Erase the agony that buries a grave in me
Ease my pain of clouded rain that you see
You burned me with wounds of rainbow remorse and rejection 
You carried me with cold hands and a heart that I won't mention...

Take my breath away, serenity beyond this island 
Of isolating vacation
You stole from me a special sensation close at hand...
Now, the indignation!

Your shameful spirits of woe is a huge battlefield 
Of destruction, stained with tainted, sickening elation 
You know what? His Holy Spirit is my golden shield,
Despite drifting away due to abominable anticipation 

Listening to music, all alone once again
I am trying to forget and forgive you
You're a pop song in repeat times trillion
I can't stand the things I go through

But, I will be bold
I will stand five-fold
Tears in my eyes
Drain it all away
Tell me no more lies
No, not tonight nor today...
You're hard to hold
I'm warm and you're...so cold..

Copyright © | Year Posted 2018



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Date: 6/23/2018 7:50:00 AM
JW.. powerful, emotive write!
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Date: 6/23/2018 11:50:00 PM
Thank you tremendously! #JWE
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