Hard To Hold

I noticed how you pushed me in the margins Don’t think it was fair, being thrown in garbage bins I am an amazon parrot in the middle of nowhere I soar so high, can’t deny, forgetting past despair Don’t break me…and you let it all show.. My headaches and growth pains makes living life rough I long to be free…from the depths of below… So, don’t you lead me on with your avarice aggressiveness I won’t ever be deceived by your heartless, half-hearted smiles Regrets, no more of your wasted time and such sore sadness You give me lows and highs that go on and on for a million miles Wished for glee…lacking glow…stranded and out you go… Happiness won’t spare me a dime of delight…yet I am a melody with a ruined tune...I hope for your harmony Well, it doesn’t matter if we are airborne like a...jet I just don’t want to be free-falling to the ground helplessly Cut down like a tree…so low…speechless, oh no…. I’ve done a lot more damage than good unfortunately You tattooed your tranquility upon my thirsty veins Seconds, minutes and hours pass me by mindlessly You zip through my lost mind like thousands of trains You didn’t hear my plea...I know…yeah, you know… My heart was pounding with agitation and spiraling madness Until you enlightened my mindset and all of me to be honest Thanks for the strength you gave me when I was in my mess You always end up out of my reach barely – just give me rest Where do I truly flee? Oh…why is my progress so slow? Naturally, you did make me feel...so much less than enough Poetry helps to express my emotional imperfections and stuff Erase the agony that buries a grave in me Ease my pain of clouded rain that you see You burned me with wounds of rainbow remorse and rejection You carried me with cold hands and a heart that I won't mention... Take my breath away, serenity beyond this island Of isolating vacation You stole from me a special sensation close at hand... Now, the indignation! Your shameful spirits of woe is a huge battlefield Of destruction, stained with tainted, sickening elation You know what? His Holy Spirit is my golden shield, Despite drifting away due to abominable anticipation Listening to music, all alone once again I am trying to forget and forgive you You're a pop song in repeat times trillion I can't stand the things I go through But, I will be bold I will stand five-fold Tears in my eyes Drain it all away Tell me no more lies No, not tonight nor today... You're hard to hold I'm warm and you're...so cold..