Happy 35th
How crazy is it
that our moments are
only separated by seconds
The world is so vast
And us
Just tiny specs in it
That time deems as it's
Temporary possessions
What more can we expect
From this uncertain vitality
In any given present second
We're gifted
With full intent
Deemed good enough to receive
This life
This circulating breath
This life and all of its undeniable
Treasures that we get
That
Some invisible majestic being
Bestowed onto us
And yet
As full and loud as the universe gets
I still feel empty
Alone and immensely
Vulnerable like
My 11 year old kid did
When dad left
Lonely, and afraid
But now I can say
I am aware today
Nearly 35
Kinda angry, sometimes
A little pissed I'm alive
Older than my big sister is
Since she died
So many dealings
Of unhealed feelings
But the one that is constantly reappearing
Is the feeling
I don't deserve to live past the hours
That should have been hers
My time wasn't set up for her to die
And me to keep growing old
Without her by my side
35
I kinda hate that you are here
Just feels like you are rubbing it in my face
That I am now the oldest one from the brood
Living today
Don't tell me I should be grateful
I have breath and flesh to celebrate
another earthly year
It's crazy
How huge moments are separated
By only seconds
To think we are all just
Tiny dots in this universe
Then we just disappear
Here
Where hours turn to days
And days to years
I'll grow old
With just a million moments
of your memory here
That
You left in a moment
On a day
Of a year
One I can never delete or clear
7 days short of your 35th year
I didn't look forward to this day
When I knew it would be here
I actually remember thinking
Great, 35
That's going to be a tough year.
Copyright © Sierra Mazzucca | Year Posted 2024
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