Grief from Suicide

Thirty years ago I got the call.
Your brother had to tell me
You'd extinguished your own life.
Immediate tears, for you and your family.
Shock hits hard you know.

You'd tried to live life right
Yet still it was difficult for you.
People let you down,
Kept giving you the dirty end of the stick.
You still had us, your family.

The guilt ate away.
Why hadn't we noticed how bad you were feeling?
Why couldn't you open up to us?
Why had we ever been mad with you?
Never ending questions.

You made us so angry.
Angry that you gave up on life.
Angry that you didn't talk to us.
Angry that you didn't say goodbye.
Anger destroys.

The overwhelming sadness brought depression.
We didn't want life ourselves.
We couldn't enjoy life without you.
We hibernated away.
Shunned those who tried to help.

Eventually, as time passed,
We remembered the good times
Recalling our lives, our memories.
The fun and laughter you gave us.
We started to work through the grief.

However hard it was for us,
It must have been harder for you to make that choice.
Now we live with hope.
Hope that you are reunited with loved ones.
Hope we see you again some day.


RIP Alec x

Copyright © | Year Posted 2017




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Date: 3/27/2017 12:48:00 AM
There are so many damaged people out there and no one knows because thats how the world works. Its all so wrong.
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Elizabeth Kinch
Date: 3/27/2017 2:10:00 AM
I couldn't agree more Jannie.
Date: 3/7/2017 9:27:00 AM
Wow. Exhilarating. Just... the sheer grief conveyed in this poem. Wow. Good job. ~Blue
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J. Amorose
Date: 3/7/2017 6:51:00 PM
Anytime. I really enjoy visiting new poets' pages and seeing the variety of their viewpoints. ~Blue
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Elizabeth Kinch
Date: 3/7/2017 5:24:00 PM
Thank you for visiting my poems. All the comments are so encouraging
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Elizabeth Kinch
Date: 3/7/2017 5:10:00 PM
Thank you so much for visiting my poems, all the comments are great encouragement for me.
Date: 2/21/2017 5:24:00 PM
Very sad...suicide not only destroys the soul but it hurts our loved ones. Years ago I was so depressed told my dad was going to commit suicide. He said, "I will hate you for the rest of your life!" I laughed said, "Dad, I be dead won't know"..Needless to say I'm on here writing comments and poems...Elizabeth you right straight from the heart...
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Elizabeth Kinch
Date: 2/22/2017 12:26:00 AM
I can understand why in the depths of depression someone would think suicide is a way out but the pain that person leaves behind is immense. I'm sure if they realised they would find another way. Thank you so much for commenting on my poems.
Date: 2/6/2017 7:38:00 AM
Very sad and heart wrenching; my nephew committed suicide in the year 2000 at age 15 1/2…my poor sister has had to deal with this pain till she is reunited with him one day…if only suicidal people would realize the impact they leave on there family; they'd probably think twice about killing themselves! Well done poem Elizabeth~Che :)
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Elizabeth Kinch
Date: 2/6/2017 2:14:00 PM
So sorry for your sister losing her son and you your nephew. I'm sure they would think twice if they knew the pain they cause.
Date: 2/4/2017 1:44:00 PM
It happens way too often. Leaves loved ones and friends asking questions. My husband is a minister. His first funeral was a suicide. The man had a good wife and two teenage sons. Unfortunately, no one can answer the question of why, and only God can ease the pain. God bless.
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Elizabeth Kinch
Date: 2/4/2017 2:08:00 PM
So sad when the choice they make isn't life. Thank you for commenting.
Date: 2/4/2017 8:13:00 AM
So sorry for the loss. What a tragedy. Could feel the stages of grief in your words. Well written.
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Elizabeth Kinch
Date: 2/4/2017 8:57:00 AM
Thankyou for your comment