Goodbye

There are so many things I wish I had said 
Regrets which haunt me 
And play inside my head

It feels as if time has been frozen and I can not move at all
Will you give me a sign ur ok
And answer me when I call

U have been a part of me my entire life and now I feel lost inside
When u left 
It was not just u who died

I carry your memories inside my soul and heart
My brother who loved me
From the very start 

I know ur in heaven watching me
U no longer have to be sad
Because now u r free

All ur pain has gone away
And I know I’ll see u again 
When I am old and grey

Why am I so angry at the world right now
You were the one who always knocked sense into me
Without you I don’t know how

Are you watching me and smiling or are u telling me I’m wrong
I am fighting for you still
Just as I always fought for you all along

I am battling others while battling myself inside
Unsure if I am right or wrong
But  I need to know why you died 

My chest feels heavy and my body feels weak
Can you hear me when I talk to you
Do  you hear me when I speak 
 
I miss you so much and regret so many things I never said
I wish I’d have done things differently 
I live with my regrets as they play over and over inside my head

My brother I love you and I know you are free
Is it wrong  of me to want you to still be here 
Is it selfish that I want to steal you from heaven and keep you here with me?

Copyright © Danielle Brunelle | Year Posted 2018