Goodbye

There are so many things I wish I had said Regrets which haunt me And play inside my head It feels as if time has been frozen and I can not move at all Will you give me a sign ur ok And answer me when I call U have been a part of me my entire life and now I feel lost inside When u left It was not just u who died I carry your memories inside my soul and heart My brother who loved me From the very start I know ur in heaven watching me U no longer have to be sad Because now u r free All ur pain has gone away And I know I’ll see u again When I am old and grey Why am I so angry at the world right now You were the one who always knocked sense into me Without you I don’t know how Are you watching me and smiling or are u telling me I’m wrong I am fighting for you still Just as I always fought for you all along I am battling others while battling myself inside Unsure if I am right or wrong But I need to know why you died My chest feels heavy and my body feels weak Can you hear me when I talk to you Do you hear me when I speak I miss you so much and regret so many things I never said I wish I’d have done things differently I live with my regrets as they play over and over inside my head My brother I love you and I know you are free Is it wrong of me to want you to still be here Is it selfish that I want to steal you from heaven and keep you here with me?