Goodbye
There are so many things I wish I had said
Regrets which haunt me
And play inside my head
It feels as if time has been frozen and I can not move at all
Will you give me a sign ur ok
And answer me when I call
U have been a part of me my entire life and now I feel lost inside
When u left
It was not just u who died
I carry your memories inside my soul and heart
My brother who loved me
From the very start
I know ur in heaven watching me
U no longer have to be sad
Because now u r free
All ur pain has gone away
And I know I’ll see u again
When I am old and grey
Why am I so angry at the world right now
You were the one who always knocked sense into me
Without you I don’t know how
Are you watching me and smiling or are u telling me I’m wrong
I am fighting for you still
Just as I always fought for you all along
I am battling others while battling myself inside
Unsure if I am right or wrong
But I need to know why you died
My chest feels heavy and my body feels weak
Can you hear me when I talk to you
Do you hear me when I speak
I miss you so much and regret so many things I never said
I wish I’d have done things differently
I live with my regrets as they play over and over inside my head
My brother I love you and I know you are free
Is it wrong of me to want you to still be here
Is it selfish that I want to steal you from heaven and keep you here with me?
Copyright © Danielle Brunelle | Year Posted 2018