Good Intentions

Time stands still, since you’ve suddenly gone. I no longer see your actions of being so wrong. I’ve sadly collapsed, like a broken delicate vase, trying to control myself, as I try to save this face. My pulse races circles, my heart throbs for you so. I cannot come to terms, with having to let you go. Many years of torment, feeling so utterly damn lost. Wanting to repair this marriage, at any given cost. I know you had to go, feeling no emotion that day. Now my minds a whirlwind, what now can I say? Such a strong woman I am, but full of emptiness. Jealousy is my keeper, insanity I proudly profess. How will this work, will you come back to me? Has too many attacks, taken away your dignity? I never meant to hurt you, yet although I did. Feelings of solidarity, as I manage to keep them hid. Saying responsibly, I’ve manipulated your trust. I’ve covered my wrongs with actions, of satisfying lust. Don’t set me on this pedestal, for worthy I am not. All the manic behavior, you simply just forgot. I am a monster; still you don’t see me as I am. I’ve taken your life, using my bipolar as a scam. Don’t feel sorry for me, my intentions were true. I thought all I wanted, was to love only you.