Glimpses

if you had the choice (and this writer is not saying that you have any choice whatsoever---but for the sake of getting to the end of this piece…) to wake up tomorrow morning & cash out everything that you have saved, buy a ticket to anywhere else, with the foreknowledge that when you get there, that you would have a brand new identity given to you & that with that new identity, you’d be able to erase the whole of your past in one clean swoop, with the present to live out as a blank slate, one whose future was indeterminable as the last but whose beginning was of your very own creation--- would you? in this hypothetical glimpse of escape, in this hypothetical glimpse of a certain kind of hope, just what does it say about you in your present real life? are you happy? could you be happier? are you angry? could this solution solve your anger & keep it from exploding into something much worse? are you alone, rejected, feeling hopeless? could this solution change all of that by erasing all the mistakes, all the bad habits, all the errors already made & set you free on a new path of your own making? if you think you can just walk away, you will be accused by the intellectuals of relinquishing your responsibilities & turning your back on society---being one of “those” who add to its deterioration through a blatant nihilistic thought of only the self & if you think you can just walk away, you’ll be told by the faithful that only those with the permission of some 3rd “holy” party, are allowed to walk free & you’ll be told by the state that if you do this, you will be watched, you will be traced, you will be researched & filed, you will be sought after whenever a calamity arises, which might upset that delicate balance of the status quo in the empire’s belly--- but alas, these thoughts are still yours, these wonders are still yours, these ambitions are still yours & the peace inside from which you may one day act out your most beloved of journeys, is still yours--- be well.