Get Back Up

To count where I failed you'd need more than two hands If you focus on my mistakes as a boy, you don't deserve the new man I fell short so many times, but I always got back up I made it this far, so how can you tell me I'm not enough? Born into a world of neglect and addiction Parents too busy drinking to dress and feed me I used to wonder why did they leave me Now i know being put into foster care was the best decision Social workers neglected me for 2 years, and left me in an abusive home Parents shouting and fighting, then going out and leaving me alone Social services made me a file, but neglected me until 2 years later My parents fighting drunk, while I lay crying, not been fed for 3 days, They received a call from neighbours By the age of 11 I'd been passed around 27 foster families I couldn't settle, Psychological problems, but how could my past not damage me? I needed love and care, not be made to feel like i didn't matter Crying alone, but when with the world I was giving laughter Age 12 I got moved into a children's home Which slowly became my building zone Eminem obsessed, couldn't go a sentence without mentioning His name Played his music at full volume, as I related to his pain Age 14 my so called dad died, and he's lying in a box Didn't shed a tear, cause he never checked on me, when I was crying in a cot Can't miss what I never had, got bullied, Picked myself up and fell harder Age 15, I was more alone than ever and became a self harmer I became addicted to the pain, it became more than healing The blade came somewhere for me to store my feelings Long sleeves in summer, I wouldn't let my arms show Smiling for the world, despite the fact my heart's broke This was 10 years ago, I'm now 4 years free from self -Injury Mental health problems still live in my mind, but I was made for it mentally This is just part of my story But I've got back up and i'm now putting my heart into my glory