Get Back Up
To count where I failed you'd need more than two hands
If you focus on my mistakes as a boy, you don't deserve the new man
I fell short so many times, but I always got back up
I made it this far, so how can you tell me I'm not enough?
Born into a world of neglect and addiction
Parents too busy drinking to dress and feed me
I used to wonder why did they leave me
Now i know being put into foster care was the best decision
Social workers neglected me for 2 years, and left me in an abusive home
Parents shouting and fighting, then going out and leaving me alone
Social services made me a file, but neglected me until 2 years later
My parents fighting drunk, while I lay crying, not been fed for 3 days, They received a call from neighbours
By the age of 11 I'd been passed around 27 foster families
I couldn't settle, Psychological problems, but how could my past not damage me?
I needed love and care, not be made to feel like i didn't matter
Crying alone, but when with the world I was giving laughter
Age 12 I got moved into a children's home
Which slowly became my building zone
Eminem obsessed, couldn't go a sentence without mentioning His name
Played his music at full volume, as I related to his pain
Age 14 my so called dad died, and he's lying in a box
Didn't shed a tear, cause he never checked on me, when I was crying in a cot
Can't miss what I never had, got bullied, Picked myself up and fell harder
Age 15, I was more alone than ever and became a self harmer
I became addicted to the pain, it became more than healing
The blade came somewhere for me to store my feelings
Long sleeves in summer, I wouldn't let my arms show
Smiling for the world, despite the fact my heart's broke
This was 10 years ago, I'm now 4 years free from self -Injury
Mental health problems still live in my mind, but I was made for it mentally
This is just part of my story
But I've got back up and i'm now putting my heart into my glory
Copyright © Alex Duffy | Year Posted 2017
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