Frozen

i can’t get up in the morning, i'm frozen my body wont budge my brain screams at me pleading to get out of bed but i can’t, i’m stuck i’m heavy and exhausted but i somehow find a way to move my music plays and i’m finally smiling i do my makeup, lipgloss, concealer, blush then my hair, beautiful blonde curls i put on my outfit for the day but the shorts don’t look right and the top is too tight then tears roll back down my cheeks i look in the mirror and hate what i see my entire body floods with anger i pull at my hair and smudge my lipgloss i feel even worse now, so i return to bed again, i’m stuck in the same position as before it took a one tiny thing a tiny thing and i’m frozen for hours rotting in my bed the cycle repeats countless times i’m tired and feel numb but no one understands