Friendship Lost
I let you open the box I sealed shut
I let you into a dark corner
I showed you the hidden
I gave you the piece of me
The piece I kept to myself
I poured out my heart and soul
I revealed things about me
I’ve never breathed a word about
You saw me, broken and beautiful
You saw the scars, the pain, the tears
You saw through my masks
You saw the real me
You loved the real me
The good, the bad and everything in between
I could never hide my struggles
We could laugh about mundane things
Cry together when we hurt
Pray together when we knew of nothing else
Call upon each other in time of need
Enjoy each other’s company
You showed me what it’s like
To have a real friendship
The kind people are jealous of
And wish they were so lucky to have
You changed my life
You helped me see things with new eyes
I knew of your dark past
The pain and abuse you endured
I knew what haunted you still
I loved you the same
I prayed for you until I ached
I cried for you until I couldn’t cry anymore
Then you hurt me
You ripped out my heart
And the piece of me I gave you
You locked away and took with you
You turned me upside down
You planted bitterness and anger
Rooted deep inside me
Back in my dark corner
I crawl back and plant myself
Weary to let anyone close
Weary to let anyone in
I cry now for what you took
I cry now for what I lost
I pray now to be healed
I pray now for your eyes to open
I handed you my heart on a platter
And you raked it into the trash
All in a one day
Because I stepped outside
Outside your boundaries
That you placed on your life
And I messed up your world
Forget that I need you now
Forget that it is me that is struggling
Forget that it was me that’s been hurt
Now you are the victim
I must wear the hat of the villain
I pray that one day
You realize what you did
As I sit here thinking
Tears well in my eyes
At the thought of what we had
What I found in you
The memories we built together
I still miss you
I still love you
But my heart you shattered
I’ve never hurt so much
As you hurt me
The tears I’ve shed
The feeling of being incomplete
When you feel and trust
When you give and share
You risk this
Risk it all being taken for granted
Risk it all
For what
For this emptiness?
Copyright © A Rambling Righting Riley - Shauna Riley | Year Posted 2011
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