Frantic Thoughts

things just arent the same... with you gone its like you were never there like a ghost... haunting my mind haunting my dreams its driving me crazy i sometimes wonder what it would have been like... but no... i dont want to think that it makes you being gone harder to deal with every single day is hell because you left me alone to do this and i cant... im not strong without you it was us...against the world and you vanished before my eyes leaving me to fight but i cant. because every single moment of this life is a struggle you held me up when i was weak and now im left falling forever in this endless hole of pain... drowning in my own tears wishing you were still here to save me but youre not... and im still here. wondering if you were ever real or just my minds way of saving me but you have to have been real i still feel you beside me i still hear your voice... you have to have been real... you have to have been real... were you ever real? but where does this leave me. stuck here in a trance trying to make myself believe trying to remember what your voice sounded like trying to remember your smell trying to remember your laugh the memories are to vivid. too real. so thats it then. youre just a memory to me. maybe thats how its meant to be....