Frantic Thoughts

things just arent the same...
with you gone 
its like you were never there
like a ghost...
haunting my mind
haunting my dreams 
its driving me crazy
i sometimes wonder
what it would have been like...
but no...
i dont want to think that
it makes you being gone harder to deal with
every single day is hell
because you left me alone to do this
and i cant...
im not strong without you
it was us...against the world
and you vanished before my eyes
leaving me to fight 
but i cant.
because every single moment of this life is a struggle
you held me up when i was weak
and now im left falling forever in this endless hole of pain...
drowning in my own tears 
wishing you were still here to save me
but youre not...
and im still here.
wondering if you were ever real
or just my minds way of saving me
but you have to have been real
i still feel you beside me 
i still hear your voice...
you have to have been real...

you have to have been real...

were you ever real? 

but where does this leave me. 
stuck here in a trance
trying to make myself believe 
trying to remember what your voice sounded like
trying to remember your smell
trying to remember your laugh
the memories are to vivid. too real.
so thats it then. 
youre just a memory to me.
maybe thats how its meant to be....
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Lamoureux Avatar
October 12, 2013 at 1:10 PM
This one just breaks my heart. This is only the second poem of yours that I have read and I am adding you to my favorite poets list. You are very talented.
Clemons Avatar
September 15, 2013 at 10:28 AM
Beautiful poem, Katie. I felt the honesty of a presence that is now missed. Enjoyable poem overall, check out some of mine. Might find some you like. Peace
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