Frame of Mind

Look at me now half the person I use to be Where can I find me? Lost in a sea of emotions Floating threw and threw It's lonely tears tearing my soul A wall put up to keep from drowning To keep a float no life savers to keep me From going under Where is my resolution on the outside looking in? Wall to wall glass smeared with years of tears Fear of not ending well within my self Years disappearing with time gone bye Like a pill a day to keep from finding out The worst has not yet come Can’t seem to pull myself out of this state I am in I lost myself between sight and mind All seems so small were have I gone Most cant’ understand can’t fit in my shoes Let alone walk as far so easy to say and pretend To know ones true feelings isolated from the rest My walk unstable my sight Not focus myself esteem shattered Not two days the same missing memories Blocked by judgment were have I gone Can’t find me myself and I tears rolling down Constant reminder of how it feels to be lonely Within one self-walls of glass looking in not Able to be reached to be pulled from the abets Writing is on the wall content reminder trapped In these dark and lonely walls I fell heavy and hard rock bottom no bottle To sued my pain let alone fix my broken parts No amount of comfort can sued my shattered Limbs my words are few carefully chosen All that matters seems to be slowly diminishing Find it strange a whole new outlook not sorry But sad to think I have lost so much more then I thought to have lost a mere merrier of myself Realizing I have been hit hard not yet victors’ I have been known to get back up with a smile This time my hit was blow to blow back to back What I hope and pray is to find me myself Within my frame of mind By Mirian Parrilla