Frame of Mind

Look at me now half the person I use to be
Where can I find me? Lost in a sea of emotions
Floating threw and threw 
It's lonely tears tearing my soul 
A wall put up to keep from drowning 
To keep a float no life savers to keep me
From going under 
Where is my resolution on the outside looking in?
Wall to wall glass smeared with years of tears  
Fear of not ending well within my self 
Years disappearing with time gone bye 
Like a pill a day to keep from finding out
The worst has not yet come 
Can’t seem to pull myself out of this state I am in
I lost myself between sight and mind 
All seems so small were have I gone 
Most cant’ understand can’t fit in my shoes 
Let alone walk as far so easy to say and pretend 
To know ones true feelings isolated from the rest
 My walk unstable my sight
Not focus myself esteem shattered  
Not two days the same missing memories
Blocked by judgment were have I gone 
Can’t find me myself and I tears rolling down 
Constant reminder of how it feels to be lonely 
Within one self-walls of glass looking in not 
Able to be reached to be pulled from the abets
Writing is on the wall content reminder trapped
In these dark and lonely walls 
I fell heavy and hard rock bottom no bottle
To sued my pain let alone fix my broken parts 
No amount of comfort can sued my shattered
Limbs my words are few carefully chosen 
All that matters seems to be slowly diminishing
Find it strange a whole new outlook not sorry  
But sad to think I have lost so much more then 
I thought to have lost a mere merrier of myself 
Realizing I have been hit hard not yet victors’
I have been known to get back up with a smile 
This time my hit was blow to blow back to back
What I hope and pray is to find me myself 
Within my frame of mind 

By Mirian Parrilla

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