Fractured

I can't feel my feet below the rubble I feel numb inside once more I can't deal with so much of my stubble I will shave it off to the core I can feel my heartbeat beating in my chest I can't slow it down all the way, even if I try My best won't due and even if I pass this test, What good will it do? I can't stop the beats that go awry Showers of water make a puddle I'm stuck in the middle..in the middle……. Like a broken record of Hey! Diddle diddle My mind seems to make things look so little Pound to the rhythm of my heart, searing me into fiery art Something feels heavy on my chest from the very start Sound the drums in my cranium and hum the numb away Someone once told me to never let go of childlike joy I pray Troubled waters don't know how to rest Swimming otters swim at their very best They swim river to river and ocean to ocean, Doing whatever and whatever with playful motion and commotion and devotion I feel my hands reach out to the air The air of oh so much despair But, I want to be without a single care All you do is stare with a glare My busied mind seeks shelter to rest Why are you acting like a little pest? I know God forgives our sins from East to West Life is like a hidden treasure chest...unable to be found at its best The lack of rest is what I detest God gave me this test, so I must pass it The fact that I'm trying my best Is making me feel like I tried my hardest I feel a tad bit nervous I get extremely uptight I am such a dirty mess Can't put up the fight I feel shadows consume me I feel like the ghosts of yesterday Has a hold on me completely But, not today, please not today I get so obsessed with failure these days I need help in many ways, in many ways I get so obsessed with failure these days I need help in many ways, in many ways I stumble upon a fantasy of perfection I crumble down by reality's rejection I tumble down the road of romance again I humble myself before my Lord, placing paper upon pen I get so frustrated Because I'm jaded I feel somewhat hated I hesitated...feeling faded… Lately, I don't know why Frankly, I don't care why Lately, I haven't a clue If I should die away from you I have been weighed down For so long by your...frown I think maybe gravity will do me right But, it did me wrong with all its might Share a little happiness with me someday Share a little kindness to lead me in the way I should go… You know? Share a little happiness with me everyday Share a little kindness to lead me away From woe… You know? You're helpless and scared, So much blissfully unaware You're hopeless and unprepared, Living your life on its last tear You're in distress in excess Well, I can tell that you are Let me help you nonetheless Yes, I can heal your scar Your fractured, dismal mind is slowly tearing apart by the seams Your injured self-esteem has ruined your ambitious dreams I can't feel my feet beneath the rubble of lies I feel this heaviness in my chest of crooked lullabies