Forgiving God

I really should forgive God At some point I really should probably move on Let my soul heal It was not his fault I talked to my father today Like talked talked I have to say he is ok Maybe more than ok He is great And this brought out this thought I should perhaps forgive God It really was not his fault It is been three decades There is a chance I popped into existence Into his care He needed to protect me By making me Small By caging me Forcing me to live here For the time being And that is ok Maybe I make the best of it I try It through poetry But not even my mom reads it Maybe I forgive her too She really means the love It is just expressed in a way I don’t understand I Forgive everybody Except myself I don’t deserve it yet I let myself down I broke my own heart But I forgive God He had no control But he needed to seem he knew how to do it But time has been too long And he has to deal with eternity At some point the Man has to let his guard down I saw his face He seemed worn down The plan going according to his plan Is not going the way he planned it is going The men here on earth Are looking up to him he can’t stop He hasn’t had a moment In a long while He hasn’t felt its worth it But there is no one else But him at the end of time And he can’t let himself fail I forgive God I forgive you all I have to deal with myself