Forgiveness Brings Relief

I do not want to see her face or hear her voice yet I am licking my wounds, relishing in my hurt feelings Not ready to forget, maybe never ready to forgive Most childish, but please allow me this luxury. She grovels, but I do not believe her. I am holding on to my rage, killing myself softly Outthinking what is happening. Imagining myself into a frenzy of irritation. She tries over and over. I do not relent, determined to retain my ego’s hurts. Forgiveness is not easy coming, I get coaxed into it, by a wiser person. One who understands that I am truly in a dark place, created by my own determined ego. My attitude lightens almost immediately. I feel like an abscessed tooth that just got lanced. The pressure and the build up so much worse than anticipated. Release brings relief. Written 5-28-2021 Contest: Forgiveness Sponsor: Unseeking Seeker