Forgiveness After Rape

I remember screaming "stop! " I could only yell You drug me upstairs and raped me putting me through utter h... I was so terrified. I didn't know if I would live or die. I heard my panties rip from my inner thigh. I had just turned 18. I was now an adult. I was traumatized by this cowardly sexual assault. You threatened to beat me and leave me for dead. Didn't want to be beaten. Let you rape me instead.. My mother's advice I chose to ignore. I was a teen and thought I knew more. He later let me go and I ran down the street. I was running so fast. I could hear my own heart beat Many years later, yeah I remember it well. I still have nightmares from when you put me through h... I have to forgive you because that's what God commands. H... on earth maybe, but eternity and life in His hands.