Forgiveness
I was living in darkness
I was blindsided by love
I wasn't in love
I don't want to be alone
I was looking for love
In wrong places
I was not in my right state
I was mentally ill
I chose a man
Over my children
In my eyes
Not true at all
I made bad choices
Big huge mistakes
Bad decisions I can change
The present by what I learned
From those mistakes or choices
We fall down
We get back up again
I am sorry for hurting you
Please forgive me
No one is perfect
I have learned
How to listen to you
How to show u love
I had to go through
Twisters of storms
To realize reality
Was not a dream
I was incoherent
I was hardheaded
I started to give up
My world my life
Has been stolen from me
My children are my World
I was sick needed help
And had learned my mental
Disease and addiction
Does to ur brain
Behaviors of anger erupt
NEVER SAY THINGS OUT
OF ANGER YOU MIGHT REGRET
I am sorry for the negative things you
Said I said I NEVER meant those words
Please forgive me
I thought we shared a lot
Good memories as a family
The good times out ways
The bad times we had
I had tried to teach you
Respecting your elders
And when we talk to do it calmly
We don't have to scream
Things you saw me do was not right
I was unaware I had did
Those bad things in front of you
I wasn't wanting to see
The whole picture I was
Teaching You manners
And honour and obey
No child is to talk back
Or be disrespectful to parents
I never beat you
I am sorry please forgive me
When I had lost you all
I lost hope Faith on
Everything I was blaming
Myself which is part to blame
My actions got all my things
I love taken away
GOD said he won't
Put more on you than
You can bare
How am I supposed to love
I was never loved
So I did things for you
My mother never did for me
All I wanted was to love u
And keep you safe from harm
I NEVER had that from mine
All I wanted was to be best
Mother I NEVER had
Give you unconditional love
I never had gotten
I am sorry for not listening to u
Please forgive me
I deserve to have a second chance
To show u I'm not the same
I know what to do if I get upset
I know now to not take anger out
On you all and destroy things
Or try to harm myself
I have been able to control
Maintain my anger and listen
To your needs or wants
Spend time with you all
Individually and as family
Let's move forward and start
Over fresh and new beginning
And let me show you what I have learned
You have to try to forgive me
I am sorry for what happened
Please forgive me
Copyright © Shannon Melke | Year Posted 2017
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