Forgive Me Mother

The time will come to join you, The moment of reconciliation is near, I cannot bear your absence anymore, When will my time be here? You cannot take me, Even though I am ready to come, I'm so guilty and remorseful, Waiting to join you is tiresome. I want to vanish from my hopeless dreams, It’s time to the end of my forlorn illusions; I know suicide is forbidden, Every day I live I am saddened. Through my fault, Through my own fault, Through my own most grievous fault, Forgive me, Forget all the worries I beseeched with, I am here still but not there, I loved you yet I troubled you, Yet you were always there for me, Full of compassion and love so true! The time will come to reach you, Mother beloved be patience and wait, I will come as soon as I can, Hoping you’ll be there by death’s gate.