Forever My Girl

FOREVER MY GIRL I had a girl, she was one of a kind, she was loving, prayerful, playful, she was kind Me, I was kind of a mess, so without knowing I pushed her away All she needed was a man, I behaved like a boy It's funny how forever can sometimes be a thing in the past And the most clean move can show people dust Nlisakasaka happiness but still smiled like I was Of course I wasn't, how could I be okay, yet I was better with her Nlicheka na watu, nlichoka na watu nlismile na nje ndani naumia Niliregret Juu, haikunicost kua nae, ilinicost kumuacha What you don't know doesn't kill you till its gone, then you realize you had something great going and it starts killing you It kills me to think I had her and let her go She still feels me now like she did years ago But every time I ask her to come back to me she says NO A man ain't supposed to cry but I'll be lying if I deny that I don't cry sometimes I wish her happiness but I wanna be the reason If freedom is this painful I wanna be in her prison But this too ain't forthcoming however far I look into the horizon The azure sky assures me pure love but then dark clouds approach like giant spiders and form a web of darkness A wave of pain surges in my chest as I drift into the oblivion of sadness I swear am completely sane but if this goes on any longer am gonna succumb to madness She loved me and she left me, reason was entirely me so I wouldn't call her heartless I can go on and on about her all day because her greatness is timeless But it hurts me because I blame myself for the reason she left It never dawned on me but I can now feel the pain she felt Wherever you are girl, just know that you will forever be my girl. SIKANGA