Forever in vow

Iv been married nearly 8 years There's been lots of laughter and a few tears My husband has seen the worst of me The best of me, I'm not sure I let free He reads my poems, tears in his eyes He reads through everything I try to hide He says they sound like I'm all alone But his love means more than I can ever show Iv been conditioned not to share my feelings Scared the truth would make him leave me But he told me today thats not the case That a marriage with secrets is not our fate The problem is iv never felt this way Angry or sad both to outweigh Heartbroken in love many times before Heartbroken by family hurts so much more Iv kept everything inside for too long I need to tell him I'm not that strong I'm scared that if my barriers fall His love for me will be no more How can I tell him how broken I am That my "strong independence" is all a scam I know with him I can be the real me But there lies the problem, I hate who I see She did that, she wore me down Never built me up, made me the clown Never made to feel pretty, it was the outside that mattered How can he love me when my hearts in shatters I know he's scared, I see it on his face I cant add on him my fall from grace But I need him to know, I love him dear And that losing him is my biggest fear When he reads my verses I want him to see That all I hide is how I hate to be me I know I am surrounded by love, he is my home But feelings are easier when written in a poem I love this man with all my heart But im scared to show him my mind is so dark Who would want to love someone so damaged? But I'll tell him the truth to save our marriage In sickness and health, till death do us part The vows we took forever in heart So maybe I will let him see today, The real me as I know he will stay I'm not alone and I know I'm loved I trust him not to break my heart The best part of me is him Together forever, through thick and thin I hope he still loves me now iv let him in....