Forever Forgive Me

Forever forgive me For my one and only iniquity Please forgive me With forbearance eternally Lots of anger and lust Got a hold of me… So, I must...oh, I must… Set my soul free Forever forgive me Determine my footsteps to the light Emotionally unhappy Intervene in my life with utter delight Acknowledge me please for trying my best Sin and its consequences put me to the test Withhold discouragement and doubt within I miss you the most and wonder where you been Have mercy on my sinful nature Have mercy till I grow fully mature Have mercy and I will surely endure Throughout these hardships, I'm sure I owe You more than my fickle praise today I owe You more than a thousand prayers I owe You more than my mind goes astray I owe You more than a million...jailers... I depend on You plenty for now on… You are shining bright like the dawn I want to mend my sad heart, For it's solely breaking apart Sweet, formidable darkness has swallowed me whole Unstable distress has wallowed inside, taking its toll Come save me, happiness from afar - are you at Mars? Come rescue me, shooting star and fix my past scars Inextricable lies harness hatred Intricate goodbyes increase dread Indescribable emotions course inside all Intelligence and its fervent love grows tall Forever forgive me for my stupidity nowadays My vain conscience is vexed with sorrowful days Beguiled by blasphemy and I am soon left all alone Bewildered and flustered...I am a dysfunctional phone I need a partner, abiding by my side… Take my rib to formulate an Eve for me…leave behind vanity I do need her, subsiding from evil stride… Take my quivering upper lip and kiss it confidently I have been reluctant to be with a woman for so long… I am sorry, Lord of Accord, for being insignificant in Your wondrous sight I have been reluctant to forgive myself and to belong I am so jealous of other peoples' lives and want their successes alright Reposeful remorse rejoices in my bedazzled, bemused brain Please don't jeer at me and belittle me by thinking I am insane God has created me in His divine image… Everything else is water under the bridge Virtuous courageousness takes over me I am no longer afraid and run away cowardly Morosely mesmerized by the feelings of ancient grief Remorsefully hypnotized by the lack of certain relief Audacious ardence accumulates in my mindset I'm about to let go and let live, so be gone, regret Demolish danger from my eyes of unseen atrocity Lament and arrogance dries up the bones of Calamity Intrepid illumination immediately collides into my spirit of hope I can fully cope…as I hang onto this rope...I can truly cope... With these countless, horrendous dilemmas that lie ahead Don't you stare me down with your mountainous glare, but give me forgiveness from on high instead Prodigious, precious Word of Life forevermore brought me back to life, Despite the battle between peace and strife, cutting me like a knife Serpentine shame embraced me and it won't let me go any time soon I'm doing fine with Your forgiveness and Your right hand in mine this afternoon Mortified and horrified… There's nowhere to hide I flew too high and now, I'm diving low somehow Ghastly grieving too much, Longing for longevity's touch Incapable of movement once more I am numb and alone to the core Colossal crimson rain falls upon me Colossal crimson rain calls for me Enrich me with encouragement, oh Lord With You, I desire delight that I cannot afford Succumb to the faithfulness that camouflages fervent foliage Into nature's nestling nostalgia...it's like receiving a surprise message Perilous derision comforts the evil ones from the darksome net of lies...deceiving many with lullabies Delirious decision could surely lead to fickle feelings of evilness, eagerly devouring the spiritual highs Don't scornfully feed me disheartening disaster Forbearance and faithfulness is from God Most High and He's my ultimate master Ingenious anticipation overwhelms my inner soul Godliness graciously makes something ugly beautiful I cannot distinguish happiness from anguish all the more I have thought up some rather distraught thoughts I fought battles to eventually get what I pray and wish for - I will not betray my benevolent soul that never rots Impetuous impatience indulges inside me I'm sorry for my abominations of bitter envy Rectify my radiant spirit by Your remedy Reality's demise has become turmoil's playground of plenty Forever forgive me For my one and only iniquity Please forgive me With forbearance for an eternity Lots of anger and lust Ensnared me entirely… So, I must...oh, I must… Set my soul free honestly Forever forgive me Determine my footsteps to the light with Your might Emotionally unhappy Intervene in my life and make me feel more than alright I'm determined to get rid of despair Incline my ear to your Words of wisdom I have sinned severely - are you there? Place Your right hand in mine and pray with me thy Kingdom come Prosperity protrudes out from Your knowledge that sets us free Attain understanding and pour forth healing rain Instead of this colossal crimson rain of disdain Push away the clouds of misery and the fires of uncertainty Place your right hand upon my own Understand where I stand, all alone… But, He told me you're never in solitary's hold Father told me in a vivacious vision to be bold He whispered: "Remember that I forgive you…" A heavenly seven times seven I pray His mercy won't undo The past sins I've committed because I have become stronger and more mature due to them, although I was as dark as the lion's den again and again and again I know I have been made in Your image pleasantly Give me righteous discernment as You please You've given me refuge and a reason to seek out Your mercy Give me Your dignity and restore grace at ease