Forever

if i say something too serious, just know my mind is delirious. i have been vacant for years. don't bother with tears. there are other things on my mind and i can't seem to find the time to relish what's real. taught myself not to feel. taught myself when i was nine. i was not doing well. no, i was not doing fine. now i'm living my life in a certain way. i think of the times that you used to say, i wasn't ready or i wasn't trying. you didn't realize inside i was dying, now i'm doing well. i'm coming out of my shell. yes i'm back. and im ready to kill so step back, baby, this isn't a drill. i am back, now. better than ever. you're thinking of now, i'm thinking forever.