For Momma

From a babe to a man, I needed your hand. Now I understand, it was part of God's ultimate plan. I was to be raised by another woman. Don't get me wrong, Grandmomma was something! She gave me all the love a child could need. She was always there for me. Truly a blessing! No Mother, you don't owe me a thing. Not even an explanation. I can't sing, so I wrote this dedication, tTo show my appreciation. Momma, Momma you're still #1. No matter the distance; rRegardless of what you've done. As God is my witness, I'm still your son. Yes I hold resentments, and that is hard to ignore. My hurt I can't hide. When you kicked me out. And out of your three children, why was I the one you let go? From afar you watched me grow. Did you worry about my well being? On the surface, looks can be deceiving. No, I was not well. I was actually a child living in hell. Easy for you to say "It's over, it's the past". I was forced to grow up too fast! Momma, Momma you're still #1. No matter the distance. Regardless of what you've done. As God is my witness. I'm still your son. I remember spending the night with you and that was such a treat, just to escape the hurt from being beat. Looking back it was a real tragedy. I felt you didn't love me. You were my Mother but you gave me up so easily. Grandmomma became my only family. The only person I could rely on. But now she's gone. Even now as a grown man, I feel so alone. If I could sing, this would be my song-- Momma, Momma you're my queen. For you I would do anything. I just want you to be proud of me. Whatever I've done, please accept my apology. I'm not perfect, never claimed to be. But I am strong. Especially dealing with this pain for so long. I just hope we can finally be a family when I come home. Dedicated to my Momma "Phyllis Ann Lopez" Note: Thank you Poetry Soup for allowing me to share another piece of my life. From both pieces "For Grandmomma" to this piece "For Momma" you can picture my relationships with both women. My mother was far from perfect...But no one is perfect and I love her all the same! Jimmy