For Miah
Dawn has come upon me once again.
Shadows melt and become dancing crystals of beautiful light,
and as I watch silently in my bed all alone
your haunting memories in vain I try to fight.
Then a thought soundlessly escaped me
drifting back through endless time.
back to a morning...
...You nudge me. Asking if it is time for you to go.
There are countless times I can recall
of how I longed for you to stay.
Just us inside our cocoon,
touching, dreaming, making endless love throughout the day.
But I knew back to your lifes reality
without me was where you were to head.
Babe, did you know that you would always
fall asleep before I ever could.
I'd gently touch your body,
every line I knew so well.
We'd lay naked side by side
and I secretly told you of the things
I dreamed I never could.
The words I whispered so dearly,
locked forever away into your heart.
Years from now you'd hear them
and remember of how I felt toward you then.
I love and miss you still completely,
the loss of you, the space you left,
may never go away.
So up my window goes.
A satisfied smile slowly creeps across your face.
"I'll see you later babe," suddenly fades to gray.
I watch your back in bitter sadness
as you quickly sride away.
I bow my head and shed a shatteringly painful tear,
my eyes already searching helplessly,
while I watch you disappear.
I caught a beam of morning sun
glinting in your hair.
I raised my hand to wave goodbye,
and silently called your name.
I heard the motor start to cough,
I tried to catch my breath.
You simple couldn't see,
without a shred of emotion,
how easily you forever walked away from me.
Yet I really cannot see how loving you
so much could have ever have been a sin.
You'll always hold the one true key.
I guess I always knew it from right then,
that morning was to be the last
I'd ever hold you near.
I blink.
The world outside has come awake,
and the sound of your car
has finally faded away.
I shut and locked that window tight,
trying to protect myself from feeling such desperate pain.
I look once more out over the ledge,
but there is only heavenly sunshine
once where you have been.
Copyright © Kim Porter | Year Posted 2007
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