For Miah

Dawn has come upon me once again. Shadows melt and become dancing crystals of beautiful light, and as I watch silently in my bed all alone your haunting memories in vain I try to fight. Then a thought soundlessly escaped me drifting back through endless time. back to a morning... ...You nudge me. Asking if it is time for you to go. There are countless times I can recall of how I longed for you to stay. Just us inside our cocoon, touching, dreaming, making endless love throughout the day. But I knew back to your lifes reality without me was where you were to head. Babe, did you know that you would always fall asleep before I ever could. I'd gently touch your body, every line I knew so well. We'd lay naked side by side and I secretly told you of the things I dreamed I never could. The words I whispered so dearly, locked forever away into your heart. Years from now you'd hear them and remember of how I felt toward you then. I love and miss you still completely, the loss of you, the space you left, may never go away. So up my window goes. A satisfied smile slowly creeps across your face. "I'll see you later babe," suddenly fades to gray. I watch your back in bitter sadness as you quickly sride away. I bow my head and shed a shatteringly painful tear, my eyes already searching helplessly, while I watch you disappear. I caught a beam of morning sun glinting in your hair. I raised my hand to wave goodbye, and silently called your name. I heard the motor start to cough, I tried to catch my breath. You simple couldn't see, without a shred of emotion, how easily you forever walked away from me. Yet I really cannot see how loving you so much could have ever have been a sin. You'll always hold the one true key. I guess I always knew it from right then, that morning was to be the last I'd ever hold you near. I blink. The world outside has come awake, and the sound of your car has finally faded away. I shut and locked that window tight, trying to protect myself from feeling such desperate pain. I look once more out over the ledge, but there is only heavenly sunshine once where you have been.