For Her

Mother...... Im sorry for the wrongs i've done against you Though you cant prove just what that is I'm sorry for not being the child you wanted Though i have tried I'm sorry for taking away the life you so desired Though it was no fault of my own Im sorry you are ashamed to call me blood As i am ashamed to call you mine Im sorry for the tears i've shed to your embarrassment Those I wish i could hide Im sorry that i was your obligation When i should've been your priority Im sorry for not being perfect Like the sister you seem to worship Im sorry for ever being born If only i could've turnt back the hands of time to my own undoing Im sorry you cant understand me For i wish not to understand you Im sorry for begging pleading screaming for affection Knowing all i would get was your rejection Im sorry you want me to be something im not Something i woulndn't change for any one I know know that you'll never accept me as i am I know that i will never change for you I know there is no place for me in your home much less your heart For me to have stayed and continued this sick twisted game To see how much of a masochist i could be to myself to see the pure sadistic pleasure i could derive from bleeding you dry well now the game has ended and im not sorry to say this is goodbye I know we have always been worlds apart