Flowers Covered In Blood
This is my first time writing in a long time
A lot of thoughts but in the wrong mind
I've been hiding this pain so long
I've not been strong enough to change what's wrong
Taking care of my elderly sick mother is taking a toll on me
I grew up in foster care, so I never thought she would have a hold on me
This is hidden trauma mixed with depression and a lot of bottled emotions
I wasn't given armour, I'd be lying if I said I've not been broken
We judge ourselves for flaws but still find a flower beautiful if it has a petal missing
I started to realise you can only grow if you find a better system
My roses probably come covered in blood to display beauty in my scars
I just hope the traumatic events don't take away beauty from my heart
It can be difficult to come to terms with the pain you've had in the past
Seeing who was holding the knife hurt more than the stab in the back
Betrayal from someone you loved gives you the coldest feel
Now you've got a new scar before the old one heals
I was close to giving up because I have less options
I feel death knocking, my heart's broken and my head's rocking
Would I be able to write if I had less problems?
I've been holding on to this pain for too long when it's best forgotten
I was using girls as a bandage to heal wounds they didn't cause
Relationships full of unspoken words and hidden thoughts
Growing is realising they deserved more while my scars make me feel like I deserve less
I'll give my heart to a girl one day, but I haven't realised my worth yet
The past few years have left me Heartbroken, maybe one day I'll rediscover the love
Overcome this depression and find the best version of myself
I gave up self-harming, now I'm back to writing, I'll pick up the pen when I'm searching for help
There's beauty in pain, I'm no longer ashamed that my flowers come covered in blood
Copyright © Alex Duffy | Year Posted 2022
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