Fitting In

Out I go on the porch, thinking of you as a bird approaches me You whisper in my ears and I am full of cheers… Mirror my reflection and don’t leave me with your depression… Lean on me, friend – I’ll carry you along the way Getting carried away in a crowd of beautiful individuals My mind racing fast and slow like a black Jaguar Racecar Esteem me as I place the crown on my head… The royal, rich dreams that I am encountering in my mind has left me with dread Because…I don’t know how to…how to reach my goals Can someone help me along the way? Could a friend come to me someday? Maybe not at this second…not today I feel naughty all the way…and the sky is a shade of gray I lust over you as if you’re the spotlight that’s on me Who’s getting along with loneliness? Is it not I who will see Who will see the brightest of days, The brightest of ways…anyways, I’m lead astray once more I was the light of the world, but now I’m darkness to the core Ignore me not when I am yelling out your name Hunted down like vulnerable, insignificant, small game Yet, I seek the positivity that reaches out to me I breathe in love and breathe out hate I arrived late with a distraught state You landed on my lot You were all that I got Give me a season and a reason To overcome the waves of emotion Soothe me with your words as soft and silky as vanilla lotion