Finally

FINALLY Multi-emotions/ coming and going It's been awhile since/ I sat down with pen and paper It's not that I/ have nothing to say It's the multi- emotions/ flowing in my head/ while my heart ache Don't know /where to start My heart is broken/my body in need of his hug/ just to be held /hear his voice/ one more time whispers/ of everything, scent of his pipe/ cherry smoke I know/everything/ will/ be/alright Angers builds/not at God/ but at myself ONLY...? Asking/God why? WHY??? Didn't I/ say good-morning/ open the door Good morning / Dad/before that day/ bothered me Instead/ I wrote a letter/why on that day Call me/if you need me Multi- emotions/within/deepens/ I am/not ready for this/ not ready to say/ good bye Knowing /I must Daily/ I pick up/ pen and paper Nothing comes out/but tears/ instead/hands shaking/STOP As I/ carry these/ multi-emotions I carry /to escape /into my world I hold/I hold/ holding /this paper Tears starts/ as I / sit down to try/not to cry/ looking at this pear Multi-emotions stirs/holding back my tear/ I try/ how many days/ weeks/ months/ years/ will I shed? For you Dad! My mind/My soul/ Knows But/ my heart won't let Go I ache/I ache/this pain/not seeing you/ I ache Uncontrollable shakes, takes over ME... FINALLY I break / I break DOWN Not wanting to/ but had too/ Multi-emotions/daily fills me/ with anger/joy/ sorrow Praying for PEACE, to smile/ when I think of YOU Asking /God for tears of Joy/not SADNESS /because/ I believe /you are with him No more fighting to be strong, Because I love you/ I miss you daily DADDY I EXHALE/ I BREATHE for memories giving to be shared PRICELESS MOMENTS So, I write to heal Written By Valerie Jean Grimes (My Dad Albert L Grimes Sr) 9/30/2014