Figuring Out Myself

Silly thoughts and uncertain feelings kill me inside, I am not able to keep the track with life's tide. Trying to figure out my path in the world full of chaos, Is the time running so fast or am I late? Not able to understand but wait. I sense something weird, something strange, Time flies so fast that I am not able to manage. A feeling comes that everything that passes so soon, Is it that what happened to yesterday's noon? Turning 18 this year can sense all the fear, Not any radical change (in me) but my age change. Immature childish things still exist in me, Confusion and worries lead to more stupidity in me. How can I be 18, If I am still stuck at 14? After 3 years I will be a graduate, Still feel like my mind will be blank slate. When I was a kid, I wanted to grow fast, But does there any way to begin from the start?