Feeling

What is a person supposed to feel? What do I feel? What do I need to feel? I am pretty sure that I am called “complex” because of my emotions. I was never able to tell myself something…and then have somebody else tell me something completely different …thus changing how I feel… Mood: happy I told myself it wasn’t worth it…that I didn’t have to go ahead and dig for my feelings…I was always able to show how I felt by my non-verbal’s or facial expressions…or maybe just not talking at all…and once that happened I had began to lose my “keen sense of feeling”…I was then again changing the way I felt…I was liking it for some reason… Mood: Hurt I’m liking the was this new feeling treats me…it makes me think differently…my mind isn’t focused so much on what others think of me…but of how I can make others feel… Look Around: what do you see? Look Inside: what can you see? Look at me: what don’t you see? Around: so many objects able to use and use successfully Inside: the bloody scar tissue that I’ve waited for so long to see Look at me: watch me bathe in my blood…slowly dying…with a smile on my face… *I love it when I can smell my blood let alone taste it…I want a feeling like this to forever stay with me and I will forever be happy…*