Fear

Knowing pain will be what I feel when I awake the only question that repeats with in my mind Is “if I am making another mistake?” Deep inside I have tried to hide so much fear that won’t subside. No matter what I do. This question of wonder “could something go wrong”? Is so intense; powerful; and strong. It keeps haunting me with fear that is all around me threw out my day as I just keep wishing the fear would go away, or I could find a escape. I try not to let this fear grip me any tighter then it has. But it’s already won from the time I had given in to its desires. It tears me apart day to day from the inside out with feelings of dought. While it feeds on my thoughts, tieing and twisting them into knots. It’s harder to make it leave now that it’s in. The only way to have some type of sanity is to just give in and let fear win.