Fathers Day

Happy Fathers Day, Upsetting Reminder That You Left Day, I can’t keep doing this, I can’t keep hoping that one day you’ll change. That you’re gonna come back for me. You promised you’d be there for birthdays, but I’ve spent the last 14 blowing out candles only wishing for you, Dad. I can’t let you back into my heart, my life, only for you to destroy every wall I built around myself. I’m sick and tired of being afraid every time someone walks into my damn life that they’ll just become another you. That everyone’s gonna leave so carelessly without even saying a goodbye, just like you did. I’m tired of never believing I could be enough for anyone because dammit Dad, I was never enough for you, so who else is gonna want me?