Family Violence Part 2

Then I heard her footstep getting closer. READER BEWARE DESCRIPTIVE VIOLENCE FOLLOWS This time she picked me up by my throat and pined me up the wall, screaming at me, finger in my face while smashing my head on the wall. Bashing my head in the air screaming "PUT YOUR BLOODY HANDS DOWN!", again I was air borne, but this time I went flying into the lounge. Curled up in a ball with my hands covering my head, I was crying hysterically, she screamed again "GET UP RIGHT NOW, I'M NOT FINISHED WITH YOU YET!!!" she pulled one of my arms and grabbed me by my ear, and up again I was. screaming at me, PUT YOUR HAND DOWN, AND LOOK ME IN THE EYES!!!. As I lowered my hands she started whacking my head screaming, "STOP CRYING" over and over again. Trying to summon the strength to hold it all in, almost impossible, like trying to swallow soccer balls in my throat. I managed to control it to like that hiccup kind, Shaking and trebling hoping that I wouldn’t cry, bearing in mind that I was still a child, my emotions I still, couldn't keep under control. So much pain, My butt stung, my hair felt like it had been ripped out, all dizzy and daze, my head throbbed, and there was a burn in my eyes. but I finally did lowered my hands and I look her straight in the eyes, WHACK I few again. This time my face was on fire my ear rung so bad, a high pitch screech inside my head, I rolled over and over in pain. This time when she said get out of my face, I moved so fast I slide in the carpet and hit my face on the door frame. Up stairs I ran, dived on top of my bed, covered my face with my pillow, so my whimpers couldn't be heard. trying not to cry, begging in my mind for it stop, then I heard that sound….(Pacing) ….. my body shook. I knew it wouldn't be long, before she worked herself up, Pacing back and forth talking to herself, justifying the reason’s I need more. I just wait for the stomping to get closer to my door. True to form it happened. The poem I have just told is a true story, cause it did happen to me, this was only one time, I'd had hundreds more before I hit my teens. Back in my day family violence was never talked about, It was happening everywhere, just about every house. Family violence is wrong and it needs to be stopped, but this will never happen, if you voice doesn’t shout out. Don't be like me, riddled with fear and shame, someone out there cares, just tell them about your pain. M.Mahauariki © 2012