False Gifts and Purgatory

what do you want from me? you have cemented yourself to my side and I have nothing to give you nothing to offer you have tied yourself to a sinking rock I didn’t ask you to, so I don’t know why you did you can give me the whole “it’s out of love” speal but this isn’t love not to me now maybe for you it is but for two heartbeats to pulse at the same time you have to be on the same wavelength and I can tell you now we aren’t even hooked up to the same machine so now that you have encased your entire being around me I’m sinking faster faster into an abyss that you don’t need to drown in too I’m not saying that to be selfless, some other kind of love you’re fascinated with no it’s for your own good that you are neglecting to pay attention to you want me to thrive? be the amazing person only you think I can be? then let go of me stop suffocating me every second that you rest yourself upon me for your comfort is another breath I cannot take you are not the cause of my demise please know that I was already crashing down before you met me and while you had slowed my descent you have begun to push me back into a fiery fall and you’ve kept your big, pretty smile on your face, even when your clothes started to burn you nag me not to hide from you but I can see how fake that stupid grin is of yours when you are being insane acting like everything is fine and dandy how dare you don’t you give me that I just ask for honesty and you blatantly lie in my face you are a lying hypocrite and you can go to hell but don’t come to mine