Falling

sometimes i wanna give up, but a part of me still believes that it exists. i try 2 b tough n pretend i dont want it, but every little girl dreams of it. the process is wonderful, but the end result is misery. i hate that i cant let my guard down because i want it so bad. same song, different artist. heard it all before. you might love me, and i might want to believe you, but in my eyes all i see is future lies. faults that havent been uncovered. foreseen heartache. restless nights and disappointment. so y should i get caught up in this dream? y should i believe you when ive been right about all of your predecessors? what makes you so special that i should give you access to my heart? Y am i even caught up in this explaination? y do i feel the need to check the gates around my feelings? Y do i find myself missing you? y am i wanting to say those frightful words? omg... this cant be happening... i think im..............................falling