Expecting You

My feet are swollen My hands are huge My back hurts My breasts ache I waddle when I walk I can’t fit anything He thinks I never looked more beautiful I think I never looked more fat When I feel you flutter under my hands My anxiousness for the day we meet increases I love you so much Even though we have never met I look around your newly decorated room Glance in your freshly made crib and imagine you lying there Waiting for me to hold you Kiss you Soothe you I can’t wait into I gaze into your eyes And see pieces of me I don’t know what I did to deserve you But I am so grateful for the opportunity to have you I look through your drawers and smell all of you’re freshly washed clothes I envision how cute you will look in them When it is late at night While your father is holding me tight I wonder if I will be a good role model Will I set the right example for you? Even though I didn’t plan to have you What most consider being a permanent accident I see as an endless gift Who would have known all those passionate nights? All of those sizzling kisses All of that lust covered love Would give me my son