Existing In a World of Sorrow

There was confusion and devastation followed by a feeling of extreme desperation as I longed for rejuvenation so as to go back into the world that I once knew a world where equanimity was so true. But this I was helpless to achieve just as I was not able to foresee all that was in store for me and as I tried to understand through a persistent desire to make mind sense of the circumstance I was devoured by an emotional fire. And more confusion because of all that consumed me and the feelings that entombed me. And I eventually started to see my limitations while hoping for reconciliation from those feelings I could not control By way of logic that I knew the mind could hold. Though benumbed I desperately attempted to explain the mind’s realizations to the heart but logic had been torn away from my being’s state for I was now lost in a life of hardship in a confusing dream and I was left with my heart’s subliminal scream. And I asked… Where can I find tranquility from this calamity that is in the here and now? And then I finally realized what I had been offered and what was now proposed. I had to let it be. How could I hold on when it was so painful for me? So I surrendered to the morning seed which had inseminated my world and I succumbed to an existence that seemed surreal but the course needed so as to heal.