Evolution of Change

Here and now I must go Into my unknown Where the life I need waits 47 years to the day This heart is old These feet are tired This soul been in this dark There is that light That one I fear The one that is the brightest I've shied away for so long Hypnotize by them thoughts Betrayel a scenario I've seen to much of It's hard to come to terms with what is seen It makes no sense why I bleed Why my hurt is the vessel of my ways The captivation so easy to dwell in When this pain seems enternal When the cure has no disease When I regret many of my fear decisions It's empowering to that unseen truth That this life the one I live now has no real definition I am caught in a loop of a childhood lost I keep making those same mistakes It's a crisis of sorts which I have not recognized till now I am a pawn to my only failures Lost and alone in this unknown But I know I need to see more then I have let myself see Time will heal all my wounds but the scars of this war for my soul shall remain I will continue to battle forward for all who seem to wear these same shoes This is what true growth will reveal in this evolution of change.