Even When It Hurt

Even when it hurts I picked myself up From this broken heart I felt I tried to hurt you back but your heart was already torn into pieces I couldn’t do any more damage. I knelt down before you to beg you for compassion I texted many times trying to reach out to you But you pushed me away Hurt like that I picked myself up. I tried to put my hands around your waist But the emotionlessness I got made my warm body feel the sudden wariness My heart desired to be with you But yours pushed me away. I hurt you I know, I invaded what you thought was your privacy I am sorry, so sorry, but you couldn’t see how sorry I was, you chose to see your side only. You got angry because of your own infidelities Then your uncertainties about yourself made you to think the same about me I pulled your hand trying to get you to explain You turned away and treated me like a stranger If only we could be strangers again. Even when it hurt I still longed and prayed for you Even when it hurt I still remembered the good times The finest days of my life were when I was with you. Where time never mattered, where your eyes showed more love like never experienced Time stood still with you, we had no obligation to make sense of what we had But together we knew we made sense. You did not tear me down but we tore down together Even when it hurt, I knew what my heart felt. “Take my hand to explain what happened,” I said Angry as you knew I would get, we managed to return to our own We knelt down and prayed, and forgiveness was certain And still we remained strong. But now we don’t even talk any more but you question me with thousands of things Which sometimes don’t even make sense. I am not perfect and neither are you But our imperfections made us grow. If I am not what you wanted then I am humbly sorry Even if it hurts peace will be restored in my life Even if it hurts I will keep on being joyful Even if it hurts eventually the music and smiles will be back in my life Even when it hurts the strength I once had shall rise. I know it will hurt but I will arise in hope again Lost I will no more be, found in myself I will remain