Escaping Judgment

Whisked away from the judgment, those in who's eyes The creator of this universe and humans I defy My sin was to be trapped in this body that is wrong And since I've seen my kitty it's now been 3 months long How I miss her warm, soft fur and her sweet meow 3 months today seems like forever ago now My new reality so uncertain what tomorrow brings to me Will they drag my case out or will they set me free New beginnings give me hope but Hope I'm still without And looming in my near future a shadow born of doubt So numb to new experiences, possibilities and friends My mind is filled with only when will the waiting end One could not be blamed for thinking me ungrateful Surely things are better now than when they were God awful Lovely humans, even some with whom I could connect But the numbness will not let them, traps the good things in a net A net of doubt, forcing me to focus on what's wrong Reminding me more judgment will find me before long