Envy, a Heavy Cross

I know there is a heaven, you have taken me there, I know there is a hell I have lived that despair. That despair of knowing you lie in another's arms, succumb nightly to some others charms Each minute I die, drown in every goodbye, and fill my pillows with every tear that I cry. Absence is a lonely place, a vast and dreamless space, with only memories of your consoling face. Are his whispers as true as mine, does his love fill the soul, do your hearts as one combine. I know there is heaven and hell, that you and loss have worked your spell, it is only in memories that I live and dwell. Memories can be unkind, peace and contentment so hard to find, this life without you is so confined. Now I stand the lapping shore, await the call of Aphrodite's foam, knowing that once this heart, you lived and called your home.